Hey lovelies ❤️ I feel like it’s time for a bit of a life update – even though very soon I will be posting my May reflections. I hope the two posts don’t turn out too similar 🙊 But I suppose this post is more about my day today 🌞
If you follow my blog and read some of my posts then you may know I have been chatting to my ex again (Whats new)?
Now the thing is with my ex, we have been on and off for pretty much the last two years. I met him when I was 18 and I’m now 21, so it’s actually more like 3 years. Wow. Whats weird to me is how I remember back when we were first together I used to ask him if he could see me in his life in 5 years time, he always said he hoped so. Well now its three years down the line and we still are a part of each others lives, but this isn’t how I want it to be.
We have been texting for the past three weeks, and it’s been nice for the most part. I love speaking to him but I was getting bored of the daily chats when we never actually would hang out. We talk everyday, usually the people I talk to everyday are the ones who I see on a weekly basis. I messaged him asking why he wanted us to be friends when we never actually saw each other. He said he valued me and that he feels happy talking to me. We finally met up today and I don’t know what to make of things now.
I had a really nice time with him today, he made me laugh and smile and to be honest I just always feel good when I’m with him. But it’s not enough, and now I feel sad because I don’t imagine he’ll make plans with me for another two weeks since thats normally what happens 😦 but I want to see him more often than that… I would love to see him twice a week at least! Or even once a week then twice another week.
Also when we left each other he was like ‘catch you around’ .. Who says that? To me thats like he doesn’t plan on seeing me again unless we bump into each other out and about.
I guess all I can do is take it day by day and see what happens. We are texting now so I’m going to continue replying and being friendly. I know technically we are just friends right now, but I do want it to go further than that (at least I think). I’m honestly not sure, but if it get’s too much and I find my feelings grow then I’ll say something to him and ask him how he’s feeling.
I really think it’s important that no matter what I need to start being more positive and believing in him, rather than expecting the worst 🌞
I’ll keep you updated with what happens, thankyou for reading ❤️ I hope you guys have had a good day today, lots of love ❤️ J